What holds us back from going over the edge spiritually?

Dec 8th, 2015

Siloam Springs, AR

First of all, there are many ideas of what “going over the edge” means. Some may think going over the edge means going too far. Some may think it may be going from sanity to insanity. Some may think it means going to the point of no return. The very idea of going over the edge may encompass some of these definitions, but until one does in fact go over the edge, it may be hard to know for sure.

My definition of “going over the edge” is from a spiritual meditation standpoint. It is going from what we can understand, what we are similarly aware of to a state that we have never experienced before, to a point that may not be understandable, and to a point that is not even fathomable because it is beyond our five senses of comprehension. Many that have experienced this point in the past have been unable to explain it because it cannot be put into words. The Irish have an old saying that goes something like this; “The man that reaches the top of the mountain will either come back as a poet or a madman.”

So what stops the meditator from “going over the edge” or from going to the beyond? I would argue that what stops us from going over the edge is not so much the lack of ability to do so, nor deep-seeded addictions to the “physical world”. What stops the meditator from going over the edge is actually that the desire to do so is lost in the higher stages of meditation. “Going over the edge” eventually becomes a desire-less act more or less. It is like putting a cement block on the accelerator of our car and just taking it over the edge. This is also why it is quite difficult to do so in an atmosphere like “real life” where we are surrounded by temptations, friends, and “things to do.”

This is a blessing and a curse. A blessing in the idea that maybe we don’t actually really want to “go over the edge.” For those who have done it in the past, they would surely say “yes, this is what you want to do,” but how do we know for sure this is what is best for all of us. Could it be best for some and not others?

My idea of “going over the edge” and it’s implications is actually a little different than what I have heard or read about in the past. Although this is purely a theory, I ponder it quite often these days. I think is what actually happens is it is like a resetting of our soul. We go from a sculpted soul, sculpted by our experiences from this life and past lives full of complexes, acquired traits, etc. back to that of a “blank soul”. For those who do this in this life, they live out the rest of their days as a “blank soul” until physical death and afterwards perhaps after a period of “spiritual rest” in a bodiless existence they begin the process over again. It could easily be said that these “beings” are perfect in the idea that they are “blank” and have nothing that is “tainting” their soul.

The other possibility is that they do not begin again and are “permanently” in this state of “spiritual rest.” The implications of which of these two possibilities happen may be extremely important in what we all choose to do in the future. Granted the “sculptedness” of our souls are in theory all different and perhaps those who are the most “sculpted” would wish to either “reset” or pass on into “spiritual rest retirement” more than those who are “less-sculpted” or closer to “blank.”

This leads to the question where do souls come from at all? A working answer would be that they continually go through this process of becoming “sculpted” and then eventually resetting to “blank.” Although many may say that the soul does not actually exist and that it is just a jumbling of ignorance and reactionary “sankaras” waiting for liberation, I use the word “soul” as the relative word for this combination.

Going over the edge spiritually is the very essence of faith. It is a journey to the complete unknown. It is a desire-less act. It may be the only “desire-less” act that we ever go through if we actually do in fact “go over the edge.”