Living without Intention.

Who can blame those who live without intention if it is not their intention to live with or without intention?

The meditation of anapana, or breathing meditation, is very effective in that it trains one to live and meditate without intention, reason, or expectation. Some may emphasize that it is to strengthen my awareness or to calm my mind, but it’s real benefit is in helping me to lose my intention while meditating, which transfers to real life. 

 If I constantly have intention or expectation in my spiritual practice, I am living in the past, present and future, rather than the pure present moment. Intention is impetus. Expectation is looking for a result. If I intend to do something, I am living in the future. If I intend to do something for something,  I expect a result. If I do something with a good or bad intention, I am looking through relative duality. A good intention to me may be a bad intention to someone else, etc. When I meditate without having an intention, without a reason, and without an expectation it can have tremendous effects very quickly. 

 Every day I will focus on dropping the intention, reason, and expectations of my actions. It is not so easy because it is not necessarily a “natural” feeling. Through meditation, it is possible to transform my “natural” reactions and actions to be without intention or expectation. It is important for me to live intention-less throughout this journey when it comes to donating money and service to others. If I have intention or expectation of reward, then the karma will not be properly transferred to the readers and donors of the blog. I must stay intention-less and just be the “middleman” for this process to occur. 

 It comes down to am I happy or do I need a reason to be happy? Do I enjoy life for no reason or do I need a reason to enjoy life? What would happen if I needed a reason and lost that reason? Would it capsize my ship or would my ship stay afloat and active? There is nothing wrong with reason, just the necessity of it. 

In a normal person’s mind, the mind constantly looks for an intention, reason, and expectation when an action is taken. Before an act occurs the mind asks, “What is the intention?” During an action the mind asks, “What is the reason again?” and afterwards once again it asks, “What is your expectation?” If I answer all three questions with the answer “nothing”, the mind can’t handle it and will be forced to feed itself from the storehouse of past intentions, past reasoning, and past expectation. Once the storehouse is depleted fully, a reprogramming occurs. A reboot. And eventually a transcendence. No longer will the mind have any control and complete free will will have been achieved. 

 A very simple meditation exercise I practice is just following my natural breath, in and out, not trying to force it deeper or shallower then it actually is. Continually, observing the mind I ask the questions below. Mental verbalization is fine in this practice. What is my intention? What is the reason? What is the expectation? If I notice any of these within myself, I immediately cease them and continue with the practice of observation. I observe the natural breath without intention or expectation of result. Only when there is no expectation the results will come.

Even doing this for 15-20 minutes a day can calm and purify the mind. Occasionally I come to a time where I am about to quit and all of a sudden I no longer feel like quitting. The “intention” of doing something else was lost. When we lose all intention of doing something else, we become liberated, slowly but surely. 

 This blog may resonate with others because many beings throughout the world, and particularly in the West, perhaps lived the life of a sadhu in one or more past lives. Theoretically, it would seem to be impossible to have not experienced “spiritually-inclined” lives in the course of one’s “development” over time. The very fact that we are here, as humans, is because we lived with some knowledge of religion or spirituality in our past lives. Furthermore, our karma has brought us to this point. 

 Thank you all for your support and readership thus far. We have had around 700 views and 300 unique visitors in the first week. Tomorrow will be Day 0 of the journey. I’ll leave early and reach Varanasi late from an extended local bus ride. Day 1 will start the morning that I wake up in Varanasi. Bitcoins are close to being accepted as donation. Keep your fingers crossed that they are up from Day 1! Have a nice day! 

 New mantra up: Om Namo Bagavate Basudeveya

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This American Sadhu

Wandering traveler, writing a story, contemplating spiritual stuff, living austere, and helping random strangers... all rolled into ONE. What fun!

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