Is Netanyahu about to allow or cause an attack on Israel just to stay in power? Will he blame Iran to start WW3?

March 11th, 2018

No one is stupid enough to attack Israel. Thus if an attack happens onto Israel, there would only be one reason for it. The leadership wants it to happen. Netanyahu is a cornered rat. He has lost all of allies. He has nothing left and his time is finished. He will not go quietly. There is plenty of evidence to suggest that multiple wars that were “caused” by external sources throughout Israeli’s history, were in actuality carried forth by Israeli elements “outside of the country.” They were always well-planned and scripted for very specific purposes, one reason being to never be implicated that they were the original cause.

There are currently mass drills going on between the US and Israeli in case any type of attack occurs. How can anyone “predict” when a massive attack is going to come from an outside source? Who would be so stupid to telegraph an attack, and who would attack anyways because they would be subsequently destroyed by the IDF?My argument would be that the only way they can predict an attack is if they are the original root cause.

As has happened in the past, which can be proven by any historian looking in the right place, the same can happen in the future. Israel attacks itself when it suits its purpose. Disgusting, but true. Netanyahu and whatever den of allies he has left, does not care one iota for the Israeli common citizen. He only cares for himself. Someone with nothing to lose is the most dangerous person in the world.

And then we get this message today:
“On this upcoming Tuesday, March 13 the Home Front Commend will operate a drill.
During the drill there will be a siren heard at 11:05am and 7:05pm.
Don’t be panic, this won’t be the breakout of world war 3.
If there will be a need for a real siren, another siren will be followed by the first one.”

I am not concerned for the first few sentences, I’m concerned for the last sentence.
How would they they be able to predict the possibility or need for a “real siren?” And if they can predict the possibility, why would they not tell us that even if there is the slightest chance of war, that we should leave the city?

I asked is this normal? Should we come to school on this day? And they informed me that yes I was fully expected to come to class.

Does this make sense? The message clearly states that there is some possibility that a “real siren”, I would assume meaning a “real attack”, could occur. Why should we come to school if there is ANY possibility of a “real siren”? Why would they not warn us to leave the city? And how the heck does anyone know that a real attack could come if the Israeli leadership was not actually planning on doing it themselves, which they have a historical record of doing so, just to take the heat off of Netanyahu, who is about to be crucified by the government?



If any attack happens on Israel, he will surely blame it fully on Iran, and subsequently drag the US into World War 3 with Iran. Wake up people. This is not a joking matter… The writing is on the wall if you can put the puzzle pieces together.



How could the possibly know that a real siren could occur? It seems they will do a test siren to get people into bunkers and then they will do the real siren after people are already in bunkers. If this happens, you will know it was completely orchestrated by elements within.

It truly sickens me if any of my analysis is true.

I truly hope that none of this happens, but if it does, Bibi, you are going to burn buddy. Truly.

You best just go on your way… You deserve to be behind bars for the rest of your life… You cannot escape His Justice. No matter what you try…

Peace and Shalom.


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My Foundation of Christianity

March 8th, 2018

Tel Aviv, Israel

Although I was born and raised Christian, I do not label myself a Christian at the moment. The reason that I don’t call myself a Christian any longer is not because I do not believe in or love God or Jesus, it is because I understand the “prerequisites” of what a Christian considers a Christian to be. Out of my respect for Christianity, I do not label myself a Christian. But I have all the respect in the world for those that do.

To me it is like this. Once someone “finds God”, there is no longer a “need” to continue to label oneself anything. To me the greatest success of Jesus, or the type of Christianity that I was raised with, is his or its ability to point the direction to God. Many Hindu authors I have read have a perfect way of describing this process. If one wants to find God, one has to look for a signpost first. They say, “Imagine God to be the moon over the horizon. Sometimes the moon is hazy or foggy, so it is hard to see. To make it easier to see the moon, look for a tree branch in front of the moon. Once you see the branch, look further and you will eventually see the moon. Once you see the moon, you don’t necessarily have to continue to look for or at the branch.” In essence Jesus was to me the tree branch that I needed to see God. For whatever reason, this path worked for me. I was able to see and connect to the moon (God)… Jesus would not be upset with me that I do not feel the need or obligation to continue to look for him. He would be happy that I found the moon; that’s what his life was meant for… to lead us towards God, to lead us to the water… After that it is purely up to us individually to drink the water, or not. You can lead a horse… yadda yadda yadda.

I always like to ask the question to Christians, “Do you think Jesus would have wanted to have a religion built upon him? Or more specifically do you think he would have wanted to be “worshipped”?” If Jesus would have answered yes to either, he would not have deserved either. If he would have said no, I ask why do you continue to worship him and go against his will? When I thought about this, I stopped “worshipping” him. I learned to talk with the One above that Jesus wanted me to learn to talk to… My connection to God is not a “worshipping” relationship, it is an equal one. The worst marriages are when either “partner” feels superior to the other. A “relationship” with God is completely the same.

Christianity, Jesus, and the Bible are all still very important parts of my life. I still read the Bible quite often. I still pray almost every day. I still research and read about Jesus’s life and Christianity, a lot. In those regards, I would say I am just as “Christian” as anyone, and more so in many ways… Like I said, I just understand the “prerequisites” that most Christians consider someone to be or have to label themselves as a Christian. Since I do not fit all of the prerequisites, out of my respect for Christianity itself, I do not label myself as one. Although, if someone asks, I always say that I was raised Christian.  I am eternally and forever grateful to the religion, the teachers, and people that I grew up with helping me and guiding me along the way. I know that the “foundation” that I built during this time period, even if difficult at times, is one of the most important aspects of who I am today.

At this moment, I do not exclusively study Christianity. I have studied about all religions and practiced applying certain aspects of each one, to experience and verify whether or not they were also onto something perhaps unique to their own religion. To me God would have never made it easy by putting all the most important aspects of religion or spirituality into a single religion. I see absolutely nothing wrong with this. Personally, although the foundation of Christianity was extremely important for me, I still was not truly happy or “at peace with myself” from only practicing Christianity. And thus I was eventually “forced” to surrender to God and I asked him to teach me more. A long time ago after I “found Him” and asked him to “teach me” what He wanted me to know, he slowly led me to who I am now. Everything that I have learned from other religions, spiritualities, philosophies, and metaphysics have been because he knew the “sincerity” or my surrender. It was not a half-ass request… God has this power; to know who are sincerely seeking Him and who are sincerely asking Him for guidance in order to be his servant or messenger. He sends the calls, but it is up to us whether or not we sincerely answer. I say thank you to Him everyday for believing in me that I had what it took…

It has not been an easy path… And it will not be an easy path for I have asked him to test and challenge me constantly to the limits of what I can take. These limits have constantly increased as time has gone by. The challenge I have before me at this moment is probably the greatest test that He has put me through, but I asked for it… To “build me up” to where I could eventually be sent on the most difficult “missions” that He needed someone to see through. Although I may come up a little short, I know that I will give it my best. That is all that I or anyone can do; to give our best. I know there are many people in the world who have helped me to become who I am, and I thank all of them as well, for God has also worked through them… I ask those who believe to pray for me as I have a very tough challenge ahead. I shall make it through this abyss, but it will be a deep struggle. In the end ultimately it is all about the journey and not the destination… Cliche but true. 😉

Thank you for reading this…

Just wanted to share this fully and get it off of my chest…

Peace, Shalom, and Namaste!


Journal Series: Explanation of the Project and First Journal Release, “Prequel to the Blog”

February 23rd, 2018

Starting a new project and wanted to explain it a bit before it happens…

I am going to start a new process of releasing transcriptions of all of my past written journals from my travels that I have never released before. I was thinking of releasing it as a book, but this method should be more fun and I say “why not right now?” I’m leaving them pretty much verbatim of how they were originally written with little to no subtractions or additions. Some may judge me, but I say that I have no regrets of my past actions or how I lived for they all led me to who I comfortably am now. It has not been an easy trip, swinging through the extreme highs and the lows.

I’ll post a new journal or period of my travels once a week until the earliest is released. I’ll release them essentially backwards. For those I have met along the way that have followed my journeys, you may recognize them or even be in the journals themselves. I hope it is ok 😉

I transcribed the majority of my past journals about a year ago. Although I ran out of time on the last few, and some of the good ones were missing… I’ll only release what I have already written… One day maybe I will find the missing ones and release them as well.

A lot of what is written in these journals might be considered as “gibberish”, but for whatever reason at that moment it was important enough for me to write down. Posting these journals will also be a way for me to remember them and not somehow lose them in the future. This is sort a way of recording them online that is accessible wherever I go. Some are notes for my own future.

I had to be wrong many times to find a point where I eventually felt “right.” My perceptions of truth, good and evil, why we are here, are all in these journals, and are transforming constantly from now until the beginning. Most of this should not be taken as advice, although some things can be. I leave it the reader to figure out which is which. There are lots are meditation notes, many were incorrect so it is important to know what these notes are. Some things were to be recorded for later use and perhaps in some ways written to confuse rather than illuminate the way. Hard to explain. Bear with them please 😉

Some things in these journals I still agree with and others I do not, for I was constantly changing throughout them all. That’s why many will agree with some parts and not others and perhaps after reading these again in the future their perspective may change again. No worries… New stuff is coming, but I want to release the old first. For posterity’s sake.

Here goes nothin’

(Just noticed this one is sort of a prequel to the original Sadhu blog writings)… These gonna get crazy. No hatin’! 😉

Feb. 6th, ’15

Focus on the mouth and throat. It’s just a huge layered sankara. Only so many layers. Crazy how “big” it is and how noticeable it is and yet we don’t notice it. I continuously lose my mind and don’t know what I’m doing when clearing it. Have to drum up the will, remember what you are doing, know impermanence or full acceptance and just find the attached (non-moving) pieces of the throat and what it is attached too.

Once I make it past the gates, no one will know who I am.

Because absolute uncertainty exists, there must be an absolute certainty. There will be a time of absolute clarity to where all is certain.

It feels great to say “I have no plan.”

Feb. 7th, ’15

I have no plan.

The layers are falling off one at a time like a cobra who shakes off its skin.

If absolute uncertainty exists, then it would make sense that absolute certainty is possible.

There will be a time of absolute clarity to where all is certain.

No one can force anyone to come.

Feb. 8th, ‘15

Be aware of awareness while scrolling and know it will pass.

The awareness wants to be loved.

There would be no knowing if there was not awareness first. And yet knowing takes it for granted.

Find the Dharmic breath. It is a specific sensation of the whole breath and not just individual sensation. Starts off like feeling big bubbles in the mouth.

Then listen to the music. The vibrations create music and the tune constantly changes. Look for all tunes and listen to the rhythm.

Maybe Dharmic breath is connected to ringing in ears. Or to thought.

Accepting knowing and awareness at same time makes mouth bubbles rise.

Every sankara is just layers of left and right sides of the body. If you can know this nothing will last.

Feb. 9th, ‘15

If I come from the left and right,
Then certainly everything I smell comes from the left and right.

If everything I smell comes from the left and right,
Then certainly everything I taste comes from the left and right.

If everything I taste comes from the left and right,
Then certainly everything I see comes from the left and right.

If everything I see comes from the left and right,
Then certainly everything I hear comes from the left and right.

If everything I hear come from the left and right,
Then certainly everything I feel comes from the left and right.

Every flicker of life is but a layer of either the left or right.

Feb. 11th, ‘15

The smile is the natural position of the face.

Each time I finish meditation, I am uncertain of what the being will be like that emerges anew. What will my new desires or lack of desires be? What will I want to do afterwards that is different than before?

March 10th, ‘15

Don’t need a ticket home. It’s impossible to say you can be off anything for good if you don’t know the future. I don’t look at it as a “bad” thing, just another phase on the journey. Anyways, I’ll offer it to him or to Papa and see what they say. I don’t see it as a “predicament”.

One day what I am doing will make more sense to you. There will be rewards to the work that I am doing even if to you it doesn’t seem like work. One day I’ll make you and everyone else proud enough to not wish me to do anything other then exactly what I am doing. One day I’ll have enough money to pay off my debts and anyone else’s debts that need paid off. That day is not now but I promise it will one day come. Sooner rather then later.

“Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all things shall be added unto you.” (Matthew 6:33)

I am seeking this “kingdom” and with the proper perseverance, trust and faith through all obstacles I will find it. In this life and not after. When I find it, all things will be added unto me. Money being one of the most meaningless things to me at this moment will be plentiful and abundant throughout my life.

Two years ago, a path opened up for me. A path that doesn’t open for many people or most people can’t see that it is open for them to take. I saw it and so I decided to take it. It is a path that everything must be risked and everything must be given to succeed on, but once the path is traversed everything will be taken care of for oneself and everyone close to oneself. I am not doing this just for me, but for everyone that I am close with and everyone that I will be close with. God has given me everything I needed all along for this path and I intend to see it through.

Paying off my CC does not matter to me. It’s not a mandatory thing to continue on what I am doing. It will get paid off eventually. Thought that trading my past work ( stake in riding Big) for a blank slate of debt is worth it at the time, but it’s not mandatory. I’ll sell my IPhone if I have to. Also no big deal.

I’ll keep going until I find what I’m looking for and I am confident I am not far off.


Nicer message:

Don’t worry about it. It was just 3 months in Japan. Can never say you will be off of something forever unless you know the future. I am off it again at the moment with not a desire in my body.

How were you all planning of acquiring DM’s 75%? Is it not possible to acquire my lowly 6.25%?
Riding Big is sort of DM’s “baby” and something he has wanted for a long time so very unlikely to sell. Also him and Ryan worked out a deal to finish post-production on it, etc.

I don’t need a ticket home but thanks for offering. Only a predicament in your eyes… I’ll figure it out and if the debt continues to rise then so be it.

I am seeking this “kingdom” as our religion suggests. Over the years, at the behest of the Church, Christianity has been forced to use metaphor to elucidate the path that I am on. With the proper perseverance, trust and faith through all obstacles I will find it. In this life and not after. When I find it, all things will be added unto me. It will not be an endless toil working 9-5 for slave wages, running the rat race from one place to the next. “All things will be added unto me,” as in all things will just be bestowed or given to me. I know this is true as I’ve experienced but a small taste of this amazing gift.

Once I find the proper route to this kingdom it will be my “job” to teach others how to also get there. This is the reason I am here. To be a teacher like many before me. Furthermore, with His will, I intend to be the best teacher of the path that the world has ever seen.

One day I promise what I am doing will make more sense to you and the family.

One day I promise to make you and everyone else proud enough to not wish me to do anything other than exactly what I am doing.

And one day I’ll have enough money to pay off my debts and anyone else’s debts that need paid off.

This day is coming soon. Have faith.



Luke 12:33-34 ESV

“Sell your possessions, and give to the needy. Provide yourselves with moneybags that do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no thief approaches and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.”

It is very important to have little to no money on the path because money leads to temptation or straying off of the path – (thinking that we can create artificial external happiness that can compare to true internal happiness.) What our entire has lacked all these years is inner happiness and inner peace. We have relied on external bought happiness and now everyone lives with regrets. I won’t take this path…

March 12th, ‘15

The heart convulses in its conviction for freedom, even if we don’t always know or feel it. Verily, it is always best just to sit back and watch.

There is something inside of you that is the “I” but it is not you, it is separate, you are not the I.

Many times it thinks and says “I” in thought, but it was not you who thought them, they arose involuntarily separate and came from the abyss. It is easy to be confused into believing that you are it.

Get out you say? It will move, it will swirl, and it’ll crack until it let’s go, and eventually the process will start over again. How many times does it come? Well, that depends on if you have been a good or bad boy or girl.
March 15th, ‘15

Message to Adam:

Hey brother, just wanted to say that I hope all is well. When is your son/daughter coming again? I am about 99% sure I’m going through India again starting end of April. 75% sure I’m doing it on a badass motorcycle. Would love it if you could join for some of the ride. Can’t wait until our journeys coincide again and we can walk together, laugh and enjoy the rays of cosmic sunshine. It is only a matter of time 🙂

Everything is so perfect for me at the moment. Really coming into it since this Lumbini trip and last night to be specific. Think I put it together. Complex (a bit) but step by step I can explain it to anyone 🙂

Miss ya dude! Give Winnie my love!


Go back to concentrating between the eyes and moving through body like regular Vipassana. Anything that arises be with “this is the reality of the present moment, let’s see how long it lasts.” Was doing this last and had great pain arise before I started going back to looking for specific sensations of “bouncing” and focusing behind. One more backtrack but this one is caught pretty quickly.

Try to notice that when awareness moves it is just “happening” and not me moving it. Can it be done? Also notice it moves and then I am aware of it.
March 16th, ‘15 – 1:30 am

Emmys 18th birthday. – I’ve been dancing around the mountain and now it is time to move it! To find it?!? – one splits the eyes both eyes looking “forward” and when this occurs the mountain takes shape. This the mountain that must be moved, by Vipassana and being aware of it and letting the pain arise and pass away. Will work on it tomorrow all day. The eyes center is not between the eyes! Between the mental image!!! I know it’s there because I’ve “seen” it before. Jesus speaks about this mountain.

March 21st, ‘15

Today is my day of silence at Sadhana. I noticed that I always get uncomfortable when I see someone try to force something on someone else. Force them to eat more, force them to do anything.

March 22nd, ‘15

Unless we work a job that requires heavy lifting then why do we need such big muscles?

It is the egos desire to impress either oneself or others. The muscles may seem to be physically growing, but more appropriately it is the ego that is growing and the body takes on this shape.

Be happy with natural muscle tone !

Try to enjoy every moment of the ride of your life. God may one day ask you are you enjoying the ride I have built for you? Every moment? The ups and downs and spins? Even what you may consider to be “good” and “bad”? And the answer should eventually be yes, not I enjoy sometimes and not others. If one can learn to accept everything without great reaction, slowly one will learn to enjoy everything. Even hardwork becomes enjoyable overtime. And the difficult times can even be enjoyable with perseverance. It is all about perspective… Enjoy the ride.

The Earth is our backyard. No matter where you are it is now easy and (cheapish) to go anywhere on Earth. Go where makes you happy. Do what makes you happy. Moving around is in our genes. Being sedentary is unnatural. I guarantee that your ancestors were travelers, as all of our ancestors were hunter/gatherers, true travelers. Make no place your permanent home… Not even Earth is our permanent home 🙂

One may ask “how can I travel when I have a family? I have a wife or husband or kids? Take them! I see so many happy families traveling together it overflows my heart each time. Hunter/gatherers traveled as a family! What are you hunting and gathering? New experiences!!!


We can remove our fear by realizing that the best things always ultimately happen for us, even if we sometimes may consider them to be relatively bad compared to good. This can be called faith in the Divine plan. What worry should we have if the best thing for us is always happening?

Best is not necessarily a upgraded term of good, just as great is not a higher form of good. One can be great but not good, and one can be good, but not great. Best is a word used best in ultimate terms as it will nearly always be subjective in relative terms; aka the best for me may not be the best for you.

March 23rd, ‘15

Minimalist travel promotes or teaches us to have less of an ego, which increases our natural happiness levels. The ego thrives on what it considers to be “mine”. When possessions are limited, the ego is limited. Spiritual development is conducive to this atmosphere. Have you ever met or seen a sadhu? They carry very little. One can tell the size of the ego of a sadhu by the size of the bag he/she carries.


It’s not that I don’t miss you. It’s that I don’t miss anything. Missing something would be craving the past or future. If I were to say I miss you it would just be to make you feel better and not the actual truth.

It’s not that my terms are harsh, it’s just that I know exactly what I want in life.

On another note:
The reason Iran hasn’t been bombed or invaded is that the collective karma of the entire country has not allowed it to happen.


“Why are we here in this crazy world?” – (Extended written version of a Dharma talk presented March 18th at Sadhana yoga)

Why are we here in this crazy world? To build ourselves up materially only to die and pass our “wealth” on to whoever we are close to? Or are we here for deeper reasons?

I believe we are here to fulfill a goal that we set for ourselves along time ago, before we can actually remember. We are here to fill the gap that is within us all. If you have ever felt a yearning for something, but you were unsure of what it was for, this is the goal that I speak about. We are here to cleanse our spirits to such a pristine state that we can return to our home. Where we came from before all of this began. We are very lucky that we have the opportunity to even know that a goal exists and even luckier to have access to knowledge about how to get to that goal within this lifetime. Many saints and sages have came in the past and passed down invaluable information about how to proceed on the path. Maybe I can explain a bit more about it to anyone that is unaware.

Every day I am grateful for this human birth, regardless of what the specific circumstances are. It is very fortunate to be born a human and hard work to achieve. Other dimensions cannot do what we can do. The Buddha emphasized that we are very lucky to be born humans and in contact with the Dharma or with the open knowledge of how to purify ourselves. It has not always been this way. The Dark Ages were dark for a reason, there was a lack or removal of spiritual pursuit from the entire world. Spiritual purification was lost or done in absolute secrecy with the threat of death or torture to the transgressors. One would be burned a witch or heretic if caught meditating or doing purification techniques.

In the heavenly realms above, where the demi-gods and angels live there is an imbalance of pleasure. In the hellish realms below there is an imbalance of pain. In the human existence we have a perfect balance of the duality, of pain and pleasure. This allows us to overcome both because we can ultimately see they are the same and come from the same source. Heaven and Hell do exist but neither are eternal. What type of God would allow anyone or anything to suffer eternally? Those above and those below envy the human existence because we have been blessed with a wonderful temple to purify called the body.

Why are we here? Why do we practice yoga? Meditation? To find inner peace, bliss, liberation, enlightenment? What do these specifically mean? We are very fortunate that we have access to new and old techniques that can help us fulfill our original spiritual goals. Most might not believe this but step by step, I believe we will all eventually reach the final goal. Not just us, but every being in the universe. No man/woman or any sentient being will be left behind. Some will make it relatively faster then others, but all will eventually make it for we have a long time to accomplish this universal goal. If the journey to the final goal requires us to remove 100 tons off of our backs, it all starts with removing a few tons at a time. Even if we just remove a few at a time, it will make the rest of our journey that much easier.

What is reincarnation and how does it relate to the spiritual path? If I were to die tomorrow, and I was reborn again, I would possess the general qualities that I possess now. The general pleasantness, lack of anger or hatred, etc. But if a man full of unpleasantness, full of anger and full of hatred dies tomorrow, he will be born with these general qualities inherent in him in his next lives until they are purified. These are some of the impurities that I speak about, but not all. This is what we are here for, to cleanse ourselves of the impurities, fully, until we are clean enough to go home, to where we come from.

How do we do this? We do this by slowly taming the ego, the false self, by taking control of the mind, by taking control of our lives. By overcoming our reactions and our programming that we have set in this life and the last. The pristine state is characterized by absence of reaction and absence of ego. Absence of reaction is full liberation. Absence of ego is full enlightenment. The basis of the ego is it’s belief that it is separate from others. It thrives on comparison, on believing in its own superiority or inferiority to others.

Have you ever heard “attachment is the source of all suffering?” Famous quote by the Buddha used by the Dhali Lama etc. What are we attached to? Not just material things. We are attached to everything within. Not only our body and our material possessions, but the breath, our feelings, our sensations, our thoughts, our awareness. Out of ignorance and delusion, our ego believes these things to be “mine”. “These are mine”, I can give you my clothes and material possessions and certainly this will be a big blow to the ego (because the more we possess the greater the size of the ego, etc.), but it will still say ok I cannot give you these other things, they are mine. This is living in ignorance. Living in delusion. It may be hard to accept intellectually, but one can experience this truth in the higher states of spirituality which is open to all equally. The Buddha would say there is no thinker of the thoughts. No knower behind the knowing. All of these which we believe are ours, the awareness, feelings, sensations, thoughts, and knowing are just happening independently. They rise and pass away. Put into combination they build the ego, or the idea that one is separate from others, and this causes us great suffering and misery in our lives.

Yoga and meditation can put us in the proper detached mindset to where we can begin to see things as they really are. The universal truths of change, suffering, and no Self. We can slowly start to take the weight of “ignorance” off of our backs. As the foundation is broken up or the roots of our impurities are pulled out, we will start to see the first signs of our true selves emerge. True feelings of peacefulness, bliss, clarity that has been covered up over time by these false feelings and the false ego which keeps us in bondage. The truth is that there is only so much weight to be taken off the shoulders, there is only so much of a stockpile of impurities that have to be removed. Once one knows why impurities come and how to purify oneself it is only a matter of time before they reach the final goal, which is full liberation, full awakening, full enlightenment. One one stops regressing or devolving, one naturally progresses. This “flowering of the human being” has been done by a large number of people throughout our history, known and unknown. It will happen again and again to whoever wants it and whoever finds the right path out, and the right teacher to guide them. It is our collective destinies. The next step in our evolutionary process. Once one finds the proper master, they will turn the student into their own master.

What are some methods to try out?

Observe the natural flow of respiration, whether subtle or gross, whether big or small realize that it occurs on its own. Then realize that it is just happening. It’s not me, nor mine. Do this for a few minutes.

While keeping your attention on the automatic breath, notice whatever thoughts are arising and passing away. Thoughts are a huge source of food and energy for the mind and ego. Realize that they are not your thoughts, they are just happening.

For even a short time period, we can be aware of breath and thoughts with the detached mindset, “These are not me, nor mine, they are just happening.” Slowly the thoughts will become less and less and a calm state can be reached.

In a meditative state, in a detached state of mind, we can move throughout the body feeling our sensations and energy flow with just the mindset “this is just happening… It is not me, nor mine and I am not causing it to happen.” “The sensations, they are just happening constantly, but they are not mine.” When moving through the body, it definitely “feels” like “I” am the one that is causing it to happen, but we know this is not true. Try to feel the distinct but separate feeling that “I” am the cause.

Be with “as it is”, not with what you want it to be. If you are craving or averse to anything than you are going backwards. This is true in meditation and in life.

Another important point is that if at anytime you feel any pain or uncomfortablitiy, don’t think of it as a bad thing. It is a good thing. As pain or uncomfortablitiy arise and passes away you are liberated from that within your body/mind. That pain that is gone will be filled by happiness. In your day to day life a situation may arise that you may have normally become uncomfortable with, and slowly you will no longer become uncomfortable with it. Realize that this is not my pain or my uncomfortability, that it is just pure pain and uncomfortability that is happening. If you get tired or drowsy, just keep on and let it pass away. The more it comes and the more it passes away, the greater your energy levels will be in the future.

All of these techniques will help us to realize that we are not the doer in the physical sense of the phrase. This is the goal of spirituality. To remove our sense of doership.

Slowly we can free up mental energy for other uses. The mind including ego uses a full 35% of all our stored energy. Once we begin to purify ourself this number begins to slowly drop and we can use it for other means. This energy can heal us, it can make us look and feel younger, it can make us think more clearly. One can feel an overall more awakened state. Our general energy levels will rise.

All of this info can be utilized in your yoga and meditation practice.

The ultimate understanding is to realize that everything including knowing is just happening. Knowledge exists independently and is not “yours” or “mine”. There are two types of people in the world. Those that know a lot and those that know little. Most of the time, those that know little are much happier then those that “know” a lot. This is because the person that knows a lot develops a ton of pride and this is a main course dinner for the ego, which when over-inflated always causes misery and suffering. Let go of all possessions, not just physical.

Anyways, just wanted to share this.
Sorry it drags on and sort of ends abruptly. It was a smoother ending in the speech…

Cheers 🙂

March 24th, ‘15

Walking the spiritual path means continually removing all obstacles that are holding us back from absolute freedom and liberation, whether externally or internally. By slowly detaching ourselves from those that are holding us back and cleansing the mind of the impurities of reaction and ego, we come to a time where the deepest operations can occur and the pristine state can be reached.

Although it is possible to walk it around others, it is more conducive when walked alone or strictly celibate. That is until the destination is reached and full liberation is attained, full freedom is gained. That is why the Saints and sages of the past have emphasized not being attached to our friends and family. Gotama left his wife and child without even saying goodbye. Jesus said, “If anyone comes to me and does not hate father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters–yes, even their own life–such a person cannot be my disciple.” I feel this also to be true and I’m sorry to those that have felt hurt because of this tough choice. It’s a continuously hard decision but I hope you all see what I am trying to do and forgive me.

Mentally, how can we say we have absolute freedom if when a certain event happens, the mind automatically reacts in a certain way, without our permission or desire to do so. Certainly this is not absolute freedom.

Once again, I love you all and I promise one day that “this will all make sense.”

March 27th, ‘15

Just had a crazy good experience with two people in the bungalows.

I feel we are in the process of building the foundations for the climax or culmination of this cycle. The eternal climax… 🙂

One could say it is an ultimately unimportant or relatively important time, and if ultimacy and relativity are of equal “importance”, then it would also be considered an ultimately important time. The present moment is leading to the climax of why we are here… Relatively. The eternal climax.

We may lose some battles, but it is impossible for us to lose the war.

It’s amazing to see a person changing from ego to less ego. It’s cool though that the ego builds the foundation of what our future selves will utilize. When we drop the ego we utilize or use what the ego built for us in the past. Shatter the ego.


I’ve noticed that a lot of people I have talked to in past two days have broke down crying tears of joy.

April 12th, ‘15

Testing out the new Ipad mini with Keyboard. So sick! Purchased for 40,500. A bit more then I wanted to spend but I think it will be worth it for sure as I can still take pics, listen to language courses, etc. Exciting! Tomorrow I have to go to the first stage of acquiring my Indian visa.

I am starting to think that going to Varanasi first may be the better option as Darjeeling is wicked expensive when I was planning on going. Would be great to go there and just write and paint sadhus each day 🙂

Must buy those paints and find proper paper tomorrow as I have planned to meet a deaf and mute sadhu named Ababa Ramji tomorrow or the next day to paint his cosmic dance. Super stoked.


I haven’t had such a productive day where everything I wanted to do or have happen happened or came true. Was amazing. I’ll see if tomorrow follows suit. I am so excited for the new iPad mini. Think it is above and beyond what I expected. I’ll have no qualms selling the IPhone now.

Tomorrow I go to drop off paperwork for Indian visa then I think I move into Razzmatazz, perhaps the nicest for the price rooms in Kathmandu. The people there are spectacular. I am so happy I ran into them and met the owner today. He let me sit at their main computer and do a lot of work.

Got This American Sadhu registered.

Also I met this crazy Nepali guy tonight randomly from Austrailia who is going to show me the Newari side of KTM the next few days. He was a bit strange and ego inflicted but I don’t think our encounter was by chance.

I am pretty sure that I am going to end up starting my trip to India in Varanasi. It’s just all the signs are pointing that way. I think it will be perfect actually as I love the city and think it will be great to start the blog there.


I really like the idea that there will be three main writing parts to each day. Or four with the conclusion of optimism.

I also like adding in the first post… Eventually I believe this will be a go-to blog for a lot of people seeking their daily dose of pure and loving optimism, because my beliefs are extremely optimistic.

First of all, I’ll try to start every post with a new watercolor painting.
For the writing, First will be the spiritual/philosophical/prophetical/ theoretical part. 2nd will be the one page story in 2nd/3rd person that will tell some crazy story that happened during the day. These can eventually be read back to back and will make a book perhaps. 3rd part will be the actual “I did this, I did that today. This is why I love or don’t love this place, etc.” Maybe it would be better though to end it with the story. Then the very end I’ll end it with some very optimistic words and the daily reporting of how money was spent.

Tomorrow after the trip to the Indian embassy, I’ll keep looking for the paint set and proper paper to paint Ababa Ramji. I’ll also work on figuring out the exact layout of the blog and start either typing all the notes of April or the first blog post itself.

Lastly, I just remembered that I was offered to walk on a Nepali fashion show runway today. I must be sending out some serious swag vibes 🙂 hehe. Too bad I was leaving before it began. The two girl designers were smoking hot Nepalis too.

And perhaps after Varanasi go to Sarnath then Vrindaven. Vrindaven would be perfect to meet the Hari Krishnas and if my friend Mangala is there I can stay with her!!! It is a Bhakti capital!!! I’d practice and perfect my voice in Varanasi and take it there! Yes! Also look up where Arunchal is. So it’s looking like 10 days in Varanasi. 2-3 days in Sarnath. One week in Vrindaven. Then to Bodh Gaya to stay with a friend and to do service. Perfect.

April 13th, ‘15 – 3:00 pm

There is approximately million people who work and live off of non-profit charity. I dont see a big difference between what I am trying to accomplish and what they are trying to accomplish. My method is just extremely transparent and detailed down to every penny that is donated, whereas when people donate to these large charities there is no telling where the money actually goes and into whose wallets. Every penny donated will go to the intended purposes of the blog, which will be to teach people how to travel materially and financially austerely and to openly donate to individuals and organizations who are in need along the way.

Sadhus have lived this way throughout history. Living off the charity of others. This blog and project is just a modern day version of what has been going on for thousands of years. The modern day sadhu. Sadhus travel from place to place as karmic sinks for the population or karma generators as I like to call them. I am attempting to be a karmic generator for the readers and supporters of this blog, channeling the karma that I may have received for providing service or financial aid to those in need.

It is all about generating the maximum amount of happiness. If it makes me happy and it make them happy and it makes the readers happy then it is a win-win for all.

Romancing the Spirit: One of the Most Important Metaphysical “Rules of the Game”


(Originally written in Pisac, Peru in August of 2016)

Many times throughout our lives, people are meant for each other; maybe not forever, but for that precise moment. And that is beautiful in itself. Why do people feel compulsions to be around or with certain people and not others? Promiscuity is heavily stigmatized in societies throughout the world. Should it be? Of course, complete sexual promiscuity without any conscious intention can be harmful, but promiscuity in the idea that we are naturally attracted to people we meet on our journeys should not be necessarily looked down upon because there are important reasons for it. There is a mature way to understand and handle our relationships and friendships. If we can totally learn this “art”, how far can we go? This is the “art” that I am studying and would like to begin to explain.

Delusions are important in our lives in that after a delusionary episode, whether big or small, we are less likely in the future to fall into the same delusion again or others that are similar. Nearly always, we do not realize that we are delusionary until after the period has finished, and that is fine as long as we successfully make it into a clear frame of mind from which to view and assimilate new realizations. Once we have made it through enough delusions, we can start to be more aware of when we are actually living in reality and what reality entails. Many may think “reality” being something beyond “this world”, but reality is within this world if we can find it.

I have gone through many transformations within the past seven years or so. Initially my journey led down the path of volunteer work or “karma yoga” in Nepal. This led me to a further appreciation of “service” to others and the qualities that matter to different religions. After returning to the states, my passion to understand various religions continued and eventually led me down the spiritual path, which can be read about here. Last year I began this blog to document what I had learned and to have an outlet to write in the future. The “new” knowledge that I have learned has sort of taken this to a “higher level” per se, at least in my own regards.

Three months ago, after my last meditation course, I was “presented” with a book written by Carl Jung to study and incorporate into my own path. Actually I had bought two Jung books about four months before and read the first Memories, Dreams, and Reflections. The second book, Archetypes of the Collective Unconscious, I began after the Vipassana course on “meta day.” When I started reading it, because of the clarity of my mind at the time, I was able to quickly deduce whether what he was trying to say was correct or not. Within a very short amount of pages, my entire life had changed. I was just able to see my own past and present experiences and relationships in a new light and the world made much more sense afterwards. Since then, I have applied this information to my life and it has totally changed once again.

I was immediately able to see my present relationship and past few relationships in this light and I was able to communicate with those individuals and share with them what I had learned. Initially there was confusion or non-belief, but eventually they knew it to be true as well.

The basis is this: The only way that we can evolve or change who we are is by being around other people. Not so far-fetched. But to understand the exact processes that occur, metaphysically, changes everything.

One important aspect of Jung’s “theory” is that it is not a theory at all, but an empirical fact. That anyone can understand and replicate this within their own lives. Even if we are hesitant to believe, it still is always occurring, has always occurred, and will always occur. With this said, the more that people can be aware of this knowledge, the faster “positive” changes can happen within our society at large.

There are many different types of archetypes, but Jung chooses to focus heavily on the anima archetype or anima/anima relationship the most, perhaps because it is quite easy to see in our lives. He states that the meeting of an anima and an animus is fate, but what occurs after the meeting is free will. Anyone that studies philosophy will understand the debate that has occurred since time remembered of whether or not we have free will or pre-destination. In this metaphysical system, fate and free will co-exist in the present moment. Through our own free will we change who we are fated to meet. Perhaps only through this process can we actually meet the “one” if they do indeed exist. I have written about it a lot in past writings. Finally, this is an easy way to see how both can work within our world.

Why is there a need for these relationships to occur? The reason for these meetings to occur is to create balance within our society, by creating balance within the individual. Balance how? It is important to understand that we can be either an anima or an animus and are throughout our lives to countless individuals. The anima is the representative of the feminine unconscious. The animus is the representative of the masculine consciousness. When these two meet up, the desired “goal” is for both parties to work together to “transmute” the unconscious anima archetype, making it conscious. When this occurs, the person who had an imbalance of femininity becomes more masculine and the person with an imbalance of masculinity becomes more feminine. This is the only way for this “balancing” to occur on a spiritual “internal” level. In actuality, we are not really balancing our own energies, we are increasing them both to higher levels gradually. Masculine energy does not necessarily mean “manliness” and feminine energy does not necessarily mean “womanliness.” To me increasing our masculine energy means increasing our ability to “take control” of our lives. Increasing our feminine energy means learning to “let go”. If someone takes control or let’s go for too long, both paths lead to misery. We must learn to “swim” between the two energies. This can only be done through the process of the anima-animus relationship.

Meditation is amazing in the fact that it can help us to become the “best possible version” of who we are at this moment, but it cannot fundamentally change who we are. The anima/animus relationship is actually the way to mold and change who we are and we cannot always “choose” the way that we would like to evolve. This is actually beneficial to the “grand story” in that we do not know who we will be in the future as we do not know who “fate” has in store for us to meet. In my own journey, there is no way I could have predicted who I would be today one year ago, five years ago, ten years ago, etc. I believe this “path” will continue and there is no way I can predict who I will be in the years to come. Those that wish to “plan” their whole lives, to stay on a “path” or “track” are actually limiting themselves and their own evolution.

So, occasionally, when a person is “stuck” for too long in their own path, whether that be the conscious “in control” path or the unconscious “letting go” path, an individual will be “fatefully” assigned to that person to help them “break free” from their own evolution’s “stuckness”. This occurs every moment of every day for people across the world, whether they are aware of it or not. It is so fundamental and intrinsic to our world that the world could not continue otherwise. Jung goes further and states that this process has been occurring since before time began. Something that is not necessarily important to fully understand at this moment, other than everything that we think we know, our morals, our history, everything has actually been shaped by this process.

If we can be consciously aware of this process in our day-to-day lives, we can actually change our own fate, or at least who we will meet in the future. Where will it lead? Who will we meet? The “one”? Does the one actually exist? Because the thought or the experience of the one comes so often, especially as an anima, we must be constantly vigilant to its potential falsehood. The one may just be special in that they allow us to continue meeting new people, except with the stability of a companion to keep us “on track”.

The anima within, at least to me, feels like a “compulsion” to be with a specific person or animus. Overtime, which varies, this compulsion slowly rises and passes away and then all that exists is love. There is no more compulsion, and it is “ok” for both to move on in their respective lives separately. Usually, coming back together feels that the two never separated and the love between the two does not decrease. There is just no longer a “need” to be with that person. There is no more jealousy or anger if that person moves on and usually both people do feel comfortable moving on after a transmutation has occurred. Many times, they can and do stay together. This process occurs whether people are consciously aware of it or not.

I have always noticed that I tend to fall in and out of love quickly and this information explains the reasons I have always been like this. Is it a “bad” thing? Perhaps society may say so, but I see it as a plus to be “successful” in this life and process. Is love something that can be controlled or only accepted when it comes? For me I merely accept it when it comes in the present and I know that it will always come again in the future.

To me, it is incredible that this is not “common knowledge” at this moment. Perhaps it has been in the past, but just forgotten or not properly acknowledged. When we discover metaphysical empirical facts about our lives that we were at one time unaware of, it can make a major shift in our development and awareness.

In the past, if I met someone I was perhaps different from, or didn’t particularly like, or seemed boring, I might not have given them the time of day. I just didn’t think it was important to focus on them. Now I see the importance of every meeting and every person that I meet. This process allows both individuals to “evolve,” and in doing so it evolves humanity. What is the final evolution? Is there one? I’m not sure, but it is not necessarily important. The journey is the destination.

In the past three months since I began consciously “experimenting” with this knowledge, I feel my life has taken another course. I can now actively see when “fate” intervenes in my life, introducing me to new people. I no longer have to actively seek out new relationships or friendships. They are “sent” to me. I can also now immediately be aware of when I am an anima or animus to another person. I can see their “imbalances” of masculinity or femininity and why I am there in their life. Since I am completely comfortable with my own masculinity or femininity, there is a pretty equal amount of times that I am “chosen” to be either an anima or an animus. I have also got to the point that I can recognize the transformations that are occurring within my own spirit and body, becoming more masculine or feminine after transmutations. These changes inevitably change my own course and who I will meet in the future. My physique has changed in the past three months. Muscles and “sculptedness” are coming to areas that were not “sculpted” in the past, without any type of physical exercise to accompany it.

In essence, this process means that we will never get tired of our lives, for we will never know who we will be in the future. A society of constantly evolving fully aware individuals will be something amazing to witness. We will never get tired or want to go somewhere else like “heaven” or “nirvana.” This is heaven on earth… If one can answer the question of why we are here, and easy answer would be to continually evolve. This process, and understanding it fully, is one of the most fundamental ways of doing so.

We should not be afraid of swimming throughout the world, meeting new people, and realizing why we are meeting them. Embrace this metaphysical “rule to the game”.


I Believe I Was Wrong About Trump – Prepare Yourself

I never hold any regrets about what I have thought or believed in the past. I can only try to be more intelligent and discerning in the future. I could still be wrong in giving up my support for Trump… But in light of new information that I have been studying and researching, I do not think that Trump will ultimately be a good president for the USA. His ignorance, his lack of self-perspective, and objectivity will never allow him to break free of his ego, nor of those who are controlling him. This is the most important thing that a leader can do. If he cannot do this, he should not be the leader. If some sort of false flag occurs, there will be no bounds to his fury or his offensive against whoever the establishment tells him where the perpetrators.

I said around a year ago in one of my videos that it looked like to me that the “powers that be” were trying to build a group of individuals who would support Trump no matter what he did. This is always a very dangerous situation, no matter who the leader is. It is a repeat of Nazi Germany. There is a major cult of personality being built around Trump, that is he is infallible and perfect and this is extremely dangerous. A cult of personality the likes of which the USA has never seen has been meticulously developed around Trump.

I hope that I am wrong. I hope that a false flag attack does not occur on US soil. I want the best for everyone. But if you have a leader who is not in control of himself, who can be manipulated by those around him, like his predecessors before him, then this does not end up good for anyone.

The saddest part is that we truly are so close to actually breaking free. We are on a verge of mass awakening. But the powers that be are truly too entrenched at the moment. It is not light versus darkness, but darkness versus darkness at this moment. They both share the same goal. It is hard for me to be so pessimistic at the moment, but I must share the feelings that I am being forced to experience at the moment. At the moment, short of a miracle, I do not see the way out of this for us… Which I have sort of felt for a while, but I have also not lost my faith that we will find a way one day.

I am merely asking people to stop choosing sides. For now, both sides are compromised. They want full control. They will not stop until they have achieved it. Focus on yourself through spirituality and faith. One day someone will come along that will have the true power to stop them, but I do not see who this is yet at this moment.

Trump has been “built” for this moment, as was his predecessors since Kennedy. I would love to believe, and I have believed in the past, that he was “built” for a positive future, but it is becoming increasingly obvious that this will not be the case. I expect to see some sort of negative event now that will change everything. Some sort of false flag to push “their” ultimate wish. Much like what happened after 9/11 with Bush. Trump probably believes that he is actually a good person. He probably believes that through his own power he won the White House and through his own power he can save the US. But it is not so. For we cannot be a good person if we do not have control over ourselves. He has no deeper understanding of who he truly is, or what he is capable of. Power corrupts absolutely unless one has a deep faith or spirituality, which Trump does not possess. At this moment, it would take a miracle for this to change.

Whatever happens, the light is already strong enough to eventually dispel the darkness. Darkness will do its best to extinguish the light that has been lit, but we must not let it.

If they crash the economy or the markets, they will surely blame it fully on Trump and the Republican’s policies. This will ensure a Democratic majority and leadership for years to come. Perhaps this is our fate. Socialism will not help the US, it will be the scapegoat that will only enslave us further. Russia has gone through a century of turmoil to come to where it is now. As have multiple other countries with sound leadership. Perhaps, although I hope not, this is what they have in store for the US. The policies being lined up at the moment will not be good for the American citizens. They are only touching the surface of change. The #ReleaseTheMemo will only bag the outer men, not the deeper ones who are still untouchable. Until these scum are removed, we cannot proceed forward. The military does not need more funding.

Praying for peace. Praying that somehow Trump in his advanced age can awaken, but at the moment I do not think this is the case. I hope that I am wrong about all of this…

I will always stand with truth, with love, and with justice. I hope that God’s will will be done in all times.

Praying for the U.S.A. Praying for the world. God bless.

I would urge you to re-read my post from Oct. 2015:

Update: 10:00 PM Israeli time. – Just was led to this post which I think is very relevant to what I just posted.

False Flag Super Bowl Nuke Alert by Kevin Barrett – Veterans Today Editor

Everything is lining up “false flag” for this year’s Super Bowl.

I reported last October that US Bank Stadium suddenly fired its security provider and replaced it with G4S, the notorious “black ops CIA” outfit formerly known as Wackenhut. G4S is the company that employed Omar Mateen, the gay patsy blamed for the Orlando nightclub shooting. (For the unbelievable details of Mateen’s career as a G4S-orchestrated flaming patsy, check out the investigations of former CIA Officer Robert David Steele and others in my edited book Orlando False Flag.) Rumors have also linked G4S to the Las Vegas shooting and other suspected false flags.

How many fake “radical Muslim” patsies is G4S running in the huge Somali community of the Twin Cities? Will one of them be blamed for doing something crazy to the Super Bowl?

Another warning sign: The company that engineered US Bank Stadium is into “disaster response.”

Coincidentally (?) the two teams playing in this Super Bowl just happen to be named after the two leading symbols of jingoistic American militarism. The term “Patriots,” which originally referred to heroic warriors against empire, has been hijacked by false flaggers, giving us such abominations as the “Patriot Act” (most Orwellian expression ever?) and the 9/11 holiday “Patriot Day” (a more appropriate name would be “Treason Day.”) And the Eagle, of course, is our national raptor, symbolizing America’s fetish for swooping down on smaller, helpless countries and ripping them apart.

The timing is worrisome: Donald Trump appears to be on the ropes, vulnerable to a potential knockout punch from Mueller and his allies, as discussed in my recent interview with former Presidential Policy Advisor Barbara Honegger. The latest news – that Trump tried to fire Mueller last summer but was unable to do so – seems to be part of an escalating onslaught that could put Trump in a position to think that the only thing that will save his presidency would be a major false flag. Check out this piece from Raw Story:

Trump says privately that a terror attack could save him and GOP from 2018 election bloodbath

Trump has built his political career on Islamophobia, rabid nationalism, macho bluster…and, in recent months, nuclear brinksmanship. The best thing that could possibly happen to his presidency, maybe the only thing that can save his presidency, would be a huge false flag blamed on Muslims. If it’s big enough, he’ll be in a position to grab quasi-dictatorial powers and put an end to the assaults on his sensitive, narcissistic ego.

Presidents don’t orchestrate false flags. They probably don’t even directly order them. But the people who do orchestrate the false flags – moles and professional killers, according to Tarpley – usually stage them to benefit the sitting president, while also achieving their own policy objectives.

More possible warning signs:

“SMG, which runs venue management for US Bank Stadium, also manages events at Manchester Arena, the site of the Ariana Grande concert “bombing” on May 22. SMG’s clients may be found on their website. ” –source

To read more:

Additional Update:

Know that someone who is controlled by ego is controlled by ego. They are not actually in control of themselves. This is a universal truth. The Trump that we see is not Trump at all, but Trumps ego. Historically this has been extremely dangerous. It makes it very easy to control him. He is essentially a combination of Reagan and Obama. Slowly becoming senile, but also controlled by his own ego. I have been very optimistic but after doing deeper research, it looks just as much that he has ultimately been chosen by one side of the PTB. This cannot turn out good ultimately.

Hope that I am wrong but I know that I am correct when discussing ego.

Just sharing what I am being led to share. It’s ok if you disagree with me. We will ultimately see if I am wrong or right. Many times when things are too good to be true, they really are. Something seems to be on its way.

Has anyone asked why this #ReleaseTheMemo has become so important? Doesn’t it seem like only those “out in the open” are being implicated. The true controllers would never be seen and they certainly would not have leadership positions in the FBI. Does it not seem this is a major OP to fully discredit the FBI and intelligence agencies? I want to see the true swamp drained. Not just a little… Put the pieces together.

What is going to happen or might happen will be much deeper. Trump and Pence, IF nothing happens, can save the USA and the world for that matter. I still believe that. But IF something does happen, say a major false flag, than it all goes out the window. Like seriously. Bush wasn’t so bad until 9/11 and then his puppetness and ignorance truly came out. Fuck Cheney knew it was going to happen all along. That is what could be so dangerous about Trump and Pence. Truly, they will either go along with the program as they MUST, or they could ultimately be major wolfs in sheeps clothing, although I doubt it.

Imagine for a second if they truly pulled the plug on the economy. “They” always have this power. There could literally be nothing that Trump could do about it. He will only go downhill if his efforts are leading to bad results, especially if they are outside his control. He might be great if everything is going well, but can you imagine him if they are going downward fast? This is what we have not seen. This is what I am scared about.

Melania seems to know that something is up. She is a clue.

Hopefully just by discussing the possibilities we can preempt them from happening.

Update 10:30 PM:

I am a trader as well. Gold and silver are perfectly positioned at this moment just waiting for an event. I thought it could be the memo, but that is not big enough. If a FF hits, gold and silver are setup here to go to 10,000$ an ounce and $500 an ounce fast.

They are perfectly positioned for this move. A false flag here will crash the economy, crash the dollar, and make gold and silver go bezerk. The markets are just waiting on it.

There has to be an event to kick it off.

And this was posted yesterday!

Trump says it will be hard to unify country without a ‘major event’

“Hours before his first State of the Union, President Donald Trump said Tuesday that he wants to unite the country amid “tremendous divisiveness” and hopes he can do so without a traumatic event affecting Americans.

Trump spoke about creating a more united country during a lunch with a number of television news anchors. Trump said the United States has long been divided, including during the impeachment of former president Bill Clinton. Trump also said that Americans usually come together during times of suffering.

“I would love to be able to bring back our country into a great form of unity,” Trump said. “Without a major event where people pull together, that’s hard to do. But I would like to do it without that major event because usually that major event is not a good thing.” “

He knows what is about to come!!!! Wake up!


Update 1:30 AM:


This “memo” or whatever it is is nothing more than a creation, pure and simple. Someone made it for a very specific purpose. They are trying to cram it down our throats.

I at first wanted to see this memo as well, but the way they have pushed it so fast, you know that this is a creation by someone with a very specific agenda.

Please God help Trump to wake up. Please God help him to see clearly through the fog.

Kelly is giddy with the excitement for the “world to see it.” Trump’s instincts were right about him. Sack him!

Whatever it said, the fact that it was so shocking means it was probably a piece of fiction in the first place. I would not doubt for a second that whoever created it wanted Trump to implicate Obama, even if Obama was never aware of what was going on, in order to eventually either make Trump look bad OR worse to start a civil war.

We must think of all possibilities. It does absolutely no good to release this for Trump. NOTHING.

Take time on this and think it through.

What is the rush? Who is rushing this? When the heck have they ever rushed to push a memo just so the American people can see it?

Think it through.

Don’t release the memo Trump or you will regret it! Trey Gowdy knows what the heck is going on. That is why he is out.

One of the best congressmen we have ever had…

Sad sad deal.

Someone’s head is going to roll.

Think about it! Nunes is a damn Republican congressman from California! Republicans do not get elected in California unless they are “pushed” through.

This guy is either ignorant, paid for, or skum.

He looks so nice, I even thought so. But he smells like a dirty rat.

Sucks, but the memo is a fake. Even NUNES admitted the memo came from a supposed ”network of whistleblowers.” This is a load of crap.

Mueller needs to refocus his efforts, not on Russia, but someone else. Can he do it? That is the million dollar question. Can he paint the true picture? If he could, he would go down in history as the greatest American patriot of all time.

Do it Mueller! Go after who really put Trump in office. You have my blessing!

For reading on the slimy Nunes shenanigans: Business Insider

Travel Journal through Israel thus far – Sept. ‘17 – Jan. ‘18

Sept. 3rd, 2017 – 8:00 PM – Madrid, Spain – Airport

Starting a new journal today as I also started a new journey. I have had a very long layover in Madrid and did not sleep well on the flight here so I’ve been quite jet-lagged. In a few hours from now I’m heading to Israel for a long mission. I will be studying my master’s degree at the University of Tel Aviv for Middle Eastern Studies. Excitement is an understatement. If possible I will make the effort to eventually write a thesis. Furthermore I am giving up my five main addictions: alcohol, tobacco, weed, sexual activity, and meat. I have said for sometime that if I went back to school I would do it right, full bore and no messing around and I believe this is that time.

I’ll arrive at 5 am and if all goes as planned I will take the train to the station near Adam’s house and drop off my main school backpack. Afterwards I’ll take my smaller backpack and leather satchel on the bus to sit a vipassana at Deganya Bet. I’ll serve two more weeks after it is finished and then head to the goat farm near Nazareth called “Goats With the Wind.” After two weeks here I’ll head back to Adam’s, get my student visa and school starts October 17th. I’ll be sharing a dorm with three random international graduate students. Lots of excitement to come.
I feel like a young Mike Tyson entering his prime going to academia. It’s a crazy rush and I don’t know what’s going to happen. 🙂

Sept. 4th – 8:30 am – On bus from Netanya to Tiberius
So more or less everything has perfectly worked out. I got to see Adam and drop off my bag. Unfortunately he took me to the wrong station, but an hour later and I found my way.

Once I get to Tiberius, I have to wait for a shared taxi to vipassana at Deganya. I booked travel insurance late night to secure my time at the center. When I arrive at Tiberius, I need to print it out and get detergent and an adaptor.

Before I left Arkansas, I successfully raised $5,000 for local charities through a local gallery called the Golden Turtle Art Gallery. Was a smashing success!

Tel Aviv sunset.

Made it to Tiberius! Went to market and bought some amazing hummus, ok olives, and bread. Got a little ripped off on the bread and a bottle of water… Getting ripped off is ok at the beginning, because usually I don’t know the price of things.

After food I went to my favorite swimming spot in Tiberius and it was amazing. The water level was at least 10 to 15 feet less than last time I was there.

My question today, specifically after reading more of Julius Evola (who is absolutely incredible), is are Israeli women more beautiful because they were born more spiritually evolved or is it genetics?

Sept. 14th – 5:30 PM – Deganya Bet, Dhamma Pamoda
It is Metta day at at Dhamma Pamoda. Last time I was here I was doing construction on the center so I have come full circle in a way. I was supposed to serve the next course but I have decided to move on in my travels. I will go through Tiberius, Tzfat, Nazareth, and then the goat farm. Everything has been perfect.

Must practice more with non-verbalization and not looking for anything – no expectations.

Sept. 15th – 11:30 AM – Tiberius – Yali’s Restaurant
I really feel like this morning’s meditation taught me exactly what I’ve been doing wrong in meditation, the last morning of all time! I have to remove verbalization completely. Goenka has told me so many times and yet since my first course I verbalized. I always have. AND I was telling everyone how I was sort of retiring from vipassana! I met a lot of wonderful people though and basically have connections all over Israel now. 🙂 Just wonderful people.

I made it to Tiberius and plan on staying for two nights at the hostel here, then three nights in Tzfat, and then 2-3 nights in Nazareth before heading to the farm. Very interesting that all of the major Jewish holidays are coming up over the next few weeks. I’ll be in Nazareth for Rosh Hoshanah and then the farm for Yom Kippur.

I joined the Facebook group for other people in my MAMES course and they all look freaking amazing. Like seriously. Could not be more stoked about it. When I explained it to everyone at the center, they all though it was pretty cool.

I’m heading to the Jordan River to a jam session with two people from Germany that I met. A nice guy and girl. Think it will be epic. Think I will meditate before.

Sept. 23rd, ‘17 – Abu-Ashraf – Nazareth
Well I’ve let go pretty hard over the last week. Lots of drinking and smoking. So I didn’t last too long. I am staying one more night in the Fauzi Azar to watch the Hog game than I’m moving to the goat farm in Yodfat. I think that is exactly what I need. A place for creation, discipline, and working with animals.

I traveled with a German girl of Afghani descent for three days. All was fun, but our convos sometimes got too deep and our perspectives were quite different. She left yesterday to go to the Jordan River with another group.

Sept. 26th, ‘17 – 7:00 PM – Yodfat, Goats with the Wind
I made it to the goat farm on Sunday. Been working HARD past two days. Like no joke hard. Lots of heavy lifting. Lots of irrigation in the hot, hot sun. Some very nice people here though. Amnon and Dahlia are doing very well. The farm looks great. I’ll take over milking the French goats tomorrow. I’m hoping I don’t mess it up.

There is one lady named Stephanie from Germany here. One girl from Brazil named Natasha. A young guy from Israel named Ron. An older man from New Zealand came last night named Grant. And a new American girl named Donna.
Hopefully my body can get more in the flow since I have been very drained from the heat and work. Other than that very happy.

Ron, Natasha, and I working in the pens.

Sept. 27th, ‘17 – 7:00 PM – Goats with the Wind
Today was much better. Starting to get in the flow. It is always much better when we work with someone else I feel. Ron and I worked on cleaning the wedding area more today. It’s getting there. Maybe one more or half a day and it will be clean.
Either tomorrow or the next day we may go to the local pub in Yodfat. Should be fun.

Sept. 28th, ‘17 – 6:30 PM
Once again a great day. Heading to the pub here in a bit. Yom Kippur is tomorrow.

Sept. 29th – 6:00 PM
Today is Yom Kippur. The Day of Atonement. Usually people don’t do anything all day and they fast, but we still have to work tomorrow.

Last night was epic though. Ron and I went to the Yodfat pub and had such a fun time. You can’t buy beers, but they are charged to the members of the community. Only people from the mokshav can go,but since we are volunteers we were very welcome. We danced the night away with lots of beautiful people. Tonight is an epic dinner.

The food here

Sept. 30th, ‘17 – 10:00 AM
Shabbat shalom. Finished our work for the morning. Probably will help milk goats later and feed the goats/animals tonight. New week starts tomorrow. Main events will be the week long holiday of sukkot and also a big wedding on Thursday. Two of Amnon and Dahlia’s daughters came last night and are spending the day here. Leia and Hedel. Both very nice. Hedel has two children and Leia works in film in Tel Aviv.

I’m fasting on only liquids until dinner tonight for Yom Kippur. I am also trying to finish a a book.

Oct. 1st, ‘17 – 7:00 PM
Good day today. Stephanie left, but we received four new volunteers. Angela from Germany. Judith from Germany with Yeron from Israel. And Nana from Israel. I may get to start going to the dairy shop soon but I’m not for sure. Enshallah.

Oct. 2nd, ‘17 – 8:00 PM
Hardest day so far was today. Worked from 6:20 in the morning until 6:30 pretty much non-stop. I got put onto a new fun construction project building a wall with an arch for the wedding. Dug holes for the new sukkot going in and lastly was almost killed putting up a tent for the wedding which we finally got put up. All around tough but a little shoesh helped the pain.

Designs for archway.

Oct. 4th, ‘17 – 7:00 PM
Had a good day today after another tough one yesterday. A big group of us went to the pub last night for burgers, which were amazing. Tonight is first night of Sukkot, which goes for seven days. Tomorrow is the wedding so it should be pretty crazy.

I messaged Adam yesterday that I will be heading to his place on the night of the 14th for two days. I need to get my student visa on the 15th and then I check in to my dorm on the 16th. We talked a lot last night about transferring the work ethic and physical energy into school work ethic and mental energy for my master’s program. There is something special about transferring to a far distance for school. Excited beyond words.

Near finished Arch.

Oct. 8th, ‘17 – 8:00 PM
Past two days were really rough. I was working in the kitchen cooking, washing dishes and being a waiter. Only Ron and I were left so we had a lot of work. But today was chill.

Around 4 PM, Amnon and I took a sheep to the nearby city Calcum. I thought we were taking it to get a hair cut, but actually we took it to the butcher. Miscommunication. The butcher was fat and fast with the knife. The neck was cut and the blood ran into a drain. The sheep was in my arms the whole car ride and his head was on my chest. When we pulled into the butchers shop I realized what was about to happen. I held the sheep, patted him and told him he was being promoted to a better life. His time was done. Tonight we ate his liver.

A new group of volunteers we affectionately and secretly call “fresh fish” arrived. The next week should be easy. And it rained tonight for the first time. Hopefully our roof didn’t leak too much. We will replace it this week.

Oct. 10th, ‘17 – 9:00 PM
I might be going to the desert on the 12th.

What good is freedom of speech if no one has anything to say?
I’m not going to be here forever.

Gateway before we started working on it.
Gateway after. Such a happy fence!

Oct. 19th – 1:30 PM – Tel Aviv – University Sportscenter
So I have made it to Tel Aviv and successfully checked in. All is very well. I’m chilling at the pool at the moment and loving it. They have a wonderful jacuzzi and sauna, a huge gym, and tons of classes. I’m going to get a pass for the year soon. $600. This afternoon if it is ok I’m got to do feldenkrais and kickboxing.

Everyone in Middle Eastern Studies class is mad chill. I start classes on Sunday. The teachers seem awesome. Lots of good energy.

I met and a wonderful woman at Kuli Yama the other night. Deep dancing connection.
Excited about school. Still need my student visa. Hopefully I can get it soon.



January 10th, 2018 – noon

On this day, at this moment, I have found the reason why I have been sent to Israel to study. As an historian, as historians, I, and we, have a duty to penetrate and to discover hidden truths waiting to see the light of day. We do this not only to bring a greater peace to the world, which can only occur when a closer certainty of events has been established, but to glorify specific people or leaders who made tough decisions for their own people, and in a round about way, all people. For history is ultimately built by God, through man. It does us no good to only repeat what the commonly thought history is, but to shatter these preconceptions and to build anew hopefully closer to the truth of what actually occurred.

Perhaps I am here because only a outsider, with only the intention of discovering truth, could find the deeper secrets. Furthermore, I am fully aware of the dangers that are present in this quest for truth. I can’t help that from a unconscious perspective, my mind sees and puts together these truths. From a conscious perspective, I can only choose to proceed or not. I consciously choose to do so because I believe that is what God wants me to do.

My view in Jerusalem during Christmas.

The thesis I will be working on (perhaps) is to connect the early events of Israeli history in a more synthesizing way, explaining that specifically the events of 1967, 1973, and 1978 were not unconnected but completely thought-out and pre-planned by someone or a group of individuals. Essentially, Israeli’s leadership knew that a war was eventually going to come, so instead of waiting they planned and pushed for it. That is why the two “wars” were so quick and limited in their destruction. Multiple people could have not even have been aware of what they ultimately were doing. Uncovering truth can shine a glorifying light on the leaders and heritage of Israeli’s past, which can in essence be shared by all Israelis.

I know this is what I’m supposed to do, I know the inherent dangers, but I also know what these people would have known, perhaps even have hoped for, that someone who would have been able to come along to tell their full story. I do it for them. Give me strength and guidance Lord. May your will be done.

4:00 PM Notes of Frederick Douglas Conference with John Stauffer

“He was attempting to ‘out-citizen’ citizens in a land attempting to stop blacks from being citizens.”

I am almost finished with my first semester at TAU International, studying Middle Eastern Studies for my Master’s degree. So far the year has been truly extraordinary and beyond my wildest dreams. At the moment, I could not be happier.

I will end up having A’s in both my written and spoken Arabic courses, and I am currently working on three papers. One for my Selected Topics of the Middle East course with Itamar Radai. Another for my Reading and Writing the Middle East course with Brandon Friedman. And the last is for Professor Elisheva Machlise’s Advanced Islamic Studies course. I am planning on dedicating myself extremely to this process from the end of the semester Jan 21st until the start of the 2nd semester around March 5th.

I have an amazing new place to live and work on Rothschild Ave in the heart of the city. It is a wonderful refuge and enclave. It might be the best place (in terms of what I like or need at this moment) that I have ever lived at. Pure manifestation and karma.

New refuge.

I’ve met soooo many wonderful people from all over the world so far. Everyday it seems I meet more.

This weekend I’m going on a wine tour with my class, next weekend I’m going to a film premiere of the movie which just won a Golden Globe for Best foreign film with my friend from Italy. On the 17th we have a trip to see the Grand Mosque of Jaffa.

At the wine tour

Oh, and today I decided to quit social media, and surfing the online news (altogether) for an indefinite time. There is a feeling that since I’m so confident and optimistic of the future I don’t need it any longer. Now I am focused fully on restructuring and reconstructing the past. For peace can only truly be here when we have no more secrets to hide. Blessed.

Jan. 19th, ‘18
Sitting at a bar on Ibn Gabriel and Pinkas, coming to a realization I may just publish this journal on the blog soon… Why not? I have no secrets to hide… to an extent 😉

Some of the kids that I volunteeer with every week. They come from asylum seeking families in Eritrea and Sudan.

Jan. 21st – 7:00 PM
Well my goal to finish with as high of grades as possible is going well so far. I received a 93% (after a slight correction) in my Fusaa written Arabic course and a full 100% in my spoken Arabic course. First time to receive a 100% in my life. It was not easy, but pure concerted effort. Hard to not miss a single question all semester. Now 40 days to focus all my energy into 3 papers. Before, time to celebrate…

Jan. 24th, – 10:00 AM
I am getting to work now on the three papers. I am not going to say what they are about at the moment, but perhaps I will publish all three on this blog after I have turned them in.

So to take full control I will have to eliminate certain things from my daily habits… So far the main list is: Drinking, smoking, TV and movies, Facebook, surfing the internet for news, meat, sexual activity. What I can do: Read, Write, Workout, Eat, Sleep, Go to the beach if it is sunny… 🙂

Wish me luck! See you on the flip side!

Update: Had to post this new Jordan Peterson speech. When people like this are giving speeches like this, you know that humanity is winning. And haha here is a prediction… Hip hop culture (or more specifically China’s attempt to ban it) will actually save China. Word up to PG One and GAI!


Blessed! At the Dead Sea in December.

What Is Coming Next.

Everyone thinks Trump is dumb and ignorant, but he is actually “acting” dumb and ignorant. Trump loves to talk. And he loves to talk about himself. Imagine knowing such a big secret that it will literally “save the world” and not be able to tell anyone. Not many could hold this secret. Everything has been perfectly planned. A huge clap for Trump for being able to pull it off. Everything he has ever done has prepared for this moment and everything he has done will pale in comparison to what is about to occur. If a centennial Noble Peace prize could occur, he would certainly win… Soon from now.

It just may go down as the greatest secret eventually told. There will be no one left to question his judgment or authority as a human being after what comes comes. The United States will be completely unified and if the USA is united the world will become unified.

The last problem is to sort out is the Middle East. Thus look at the enormous transitions that are currently occurring.

The winner of the Middle East conflict, or more specifically Cold War, between Saudi Arabia and Iran is the country that can reform itself the fastest. In these terms, Saudi Arabia is taking giant leaps to get to this point. Iran is being left behind or blind-sided in these regards. Watch Iran attempt to catch up soon.

Saudi Srabia and Iran must eventually make peace. This should happen soon. Syria is almost finished. Yemen should be the next area to find a peace agreement.

What will happen soon in the US will affect the entire world. Those connected to those who will fall will be marginalized. Exciting times we are in.


Stock up on popcorn for the coming week. The world will never be the same again.